Evaporation...

 

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I resist

I order it 

To cease and desist

Yet...

It chooses to persist 

A sharp jab

Knifing through

Piercing 

Twisting

Writhing

Within this hollow shell

My abode

This palace of cards

Agonizing shards

This pent-up hell

At some point I thought

It would surely halt

But it grew with an aching onslaught

Suffering mode on default

Until I decided 

To be true and begin

To explore why it resided

So deep within

A dull ache persistent

A heavy heart insistent

I search and examine

Is there deep rooted anger

Underneath this pain?

Angst like a dagger

I'm choosing to retain?

So much to explain 

So much to gain

Some demons to slain 

Oh heart! 

Thee to train 

That it is okay

To display

To bare and to share

To wake mySelf aware

To find my own way

To let the eyes brim

Over, to wash

Away hurts I want to stash

Allow the aching to dim

To let go, surrender 

In the arms of my seraphim

Sometimes there's 

Solace in solitude 

Though often I find

When I'm willing to be kind

Enough to myself

To embrace Love

Freely offered 

To dissolve this outer shell

To let my nakedness spell

Out my vulnerabilities

My heart does remind

All is wholly aligned

Through this Holy Immersion

I reach the inevitable inversion 

To equanimity 

To the eventual 

Evaporation

Of Emotion

- 4/23/17